Touch Me

My mom and I went to see Cats today at the Panteges in Hollywood.  The costumes were great, but other than that I kinda hated it.  I fell asleep twice, hahaha.  I cried a little when she sang the last part of "Memory".



When my grandma died my grandpa put the lyrics "Midnight, not a sound from the pavement, has the moon lost her memory?" on her tombstone.  He was a little bit senile at that point, and my whole family was irritated that we had to waste the money to get that engraved on her tombstone.  After he died we decided to change the tombstone to say something else ("Here lies blah blah").  I hadn't cried for him throughout his sickness and death, but when I read the full song about two weeks after he passed, I bawled my eyes out.


 ::sigh:: I'd really like to meet someone... intriguing.

Hair Cut!

Short hair again!! feels good =)

That's my roommate Camila on the left.  Little Twirp. 

New Girl Crush

So, I'm getting my hair done tomorrow, and I've been struggling with wether or not I want to go short again, or to grow it out.  It's at that awkward shoulder length right now and I can't stand ittt. But, in the process of looking up hair cuts, I came across Michelle Williams.

TALK ABOUT DREAMMY!!!!! omgosh, I swooned over her for a good five minutes and then made my roommate come in and see how adorable she is.  I don't know how I haven't known who she is, but she's definitely my new girl crush.  So, I was originally thinking of growing my hair out, but she is my inspiration for short hair.  

I'm jealous.

In other news.....this weekend was terrible (haha).  I got food poisoning for the first time, and it was the worst experience EVERRRRR.  And of course it would happen the weekend before finals, when I was supposed to be working on three essays...woot woot! Instead, I spent the whole weekend trying to sleep it off. I'm finally feeling a little better, but don't really have the mental capacity to be working on finals.

oh man, I cannot WAIT for this week to be over.  Then it's off to SoCal for sunny skies and beachy days.  Not to mention St. Patty's Day at the new pub that opened up in Agoura, and my birthday party!!

The Dreamers of Dreams

I was thinking of Willy Wonka earlier and felt inspired to look up some quotes.  He's....BRILLIANT:

Mrs. Gloop: Help, Mr. Wonka, help! I'm getting squashed. Save me!

Willy Wonka: Is it my soul that calls upon my name?

"No, no, don't speak. For some moments in life, there are no words. Run along, now."

"The suspense is terrible... I hope it'll last."

"Candy is dandy, but liquor is quicker"

"We are the music makers... and we are the dreamers of dreams." (Interestingly, these are lines from Arthur O'Shaughnessy's book Music and Moonlight. The whole poem goes like this:

"We are the music makers,
And we are the dreamers of dreams,
Wandering by lone sea-breakers,
And sitting by desolate streams;—
World-losers and world-forsakers,
On whom the pale moon gleams:
Yet we are the movers and shakers
Of the world for ever, it seems."

LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE)

"A thing of beauty is a joy forever."

Willy Wonka: But Charlie, don't forget what happened to the man who suddenly got everything he he always wanted.

Charlie Bucket: What happened?

Willy Wonka: He lived happily ever after.

His wit reminds me of Alice in Wonderland, just less mad.  

Not One of the Best

I had my interview for the Costa Rica trip today.  I'm applying to go to Costa Rica for volunteer work and to satisfy a 6 credit requirement at my school.  I did not really prepare myself for the interview because I thought that not many people would apply and that it wouldn't be competitive.  I was ENTIRELY wrong.  35 people applied and only 16 are getting in.


I really have no idea how to interpret how well my interview went.  I thought they were going to ask me very specific questions like, "how would you deal with stress or strange situations" and such, but they were very general.  "Tell us about yourself". Ha! Where to begin....


It was too vague a question for me, and I don't think I answered it very well (so sad!).  But one of the interviewers gave me hope at the end, she said that I had a great GPA and have taken some interesting classes and I gave a good, thorough explanation as to why I wanted to TEFL when I graduate.  But there were so many other things I could've said! ahhh! Does everyone think these things after an important interview?? It would make me feel better if they did.


So I've basically been kinda bummed all day, because I don't think I did well.  =(.  It really bums me out because this is such a great opportunity.  We'll just have to see how it goes I guess.  


Some more reasons why I've been a whiney bitch all week:


-finals are killing me
-finding a job is impossible
-and finally: I don't have a car to drive away from everything to clear my head.  On top of that, my dad sold my jetta, so I won't even be able to drive when I go home in a week.


I'm feeling very pessimistic right now.  I swear I'm not usually like this....




In other news...I made a new playlist today (instead of working on finals, ha) and it's super nostalgic.  Nostalgia is a bit of a paradox, isn't it?


Anyways, remember this song:





Hahaha, I know, random.  But the lyrics kinda define looking back on high school memories.  And who doesn't enjoy some ska every now and then?? It reminds me of Drinking for 11 by the Mad Caddies.  


PINBACK.  Talk about making me so happy I want to cry! sheesh.  I have this one memory of sitting in my car with my two good friends staring at this beautiful tree that looked like a still life ballerina.  This is a really great video, too. 





I could go on and on about what else I put on this "music that I never listen to anymore and often times laugh at but nonetheless had a huge impact on my life" playlist. But the last one I wanted to include was Placebo: Every You Every Me. Reminds me of 8th grade....





I also included basically the entire Sublime Greatest Hits album. Also: Smashing Pumpkins, White Stripes, The Mars Volta, Blink-182, Flogging Molly, the Faint, Minus the Bear, Nirvana....ect. 


Talking about music got me out of my bad mood. I feel a bit better.

Oh, Bubble Trump

I got tickets for Band of Horses with She & Him for Memorial Day Weekend!!!! I still have to get tickets for Citizen Cope at the end of this month.

I downloaded the new Gorillaz album (Plastic Beach) and I'm kinda obsessed.  Highly recommended.

I also wrote an entire paper in 2 hours today.  3 more to go.

 I have had this blanket since the day I was born.  I still sleep with it (of course) but every morning I wake up and another part of it has torn off.  I panic when I think about the day it finally just disintegrates into thin air.  When I sleep, I need something pressed against my chest.  Interestingly, I can rely on my blanket to always smell the same no matter where I am or what has happened to it.  I read in a Tom Robbins book that the sense of smell is the best memory trigger.  That makes perfect sense.


I'm feeling this way right now:

Language Barrier

Here is an AMAZING video of the Italian actor/director/comedian Adriano Celentano who made this song.  It is a parody to 60/70's American pop songs, written entirely in jibberish.  So this is what American accents sound like to non-English speakers:





I actually really really love the song! Alright!!

So this reminds me, that since I turned in my application for Costa Rica, I intend to get an audio Spanish set and relearn Spanish over the summer.  That way, I'll understand enough to hear it spoken in its native tongue.  Then I will become fluent and dream in Spanish.

It makes you wonder about language and its association to the things they represent.  (for the past two weeks, in two of my classes, we've been discussing language and the relationship the signified has to the signifier, whether or not words are naturally related to the things they represent or not...the whole subject makes my mind go in circles really).

I would also really love to learn French.

Used Clothes

I'm loving the weather in Portland right now.  It looks just like an overcast day at the beach in SoCal.  The sky is pale grey, almost whitish and when I stare into it for a few seconds I feel like I'm looking into a mirror.  You know?

In other news, I sold some clothes on Hawthorne today and made $30! Woot Woot!  I'm now at Powell's on Hawthorne pretending to write one of the most annoying essays of this term.  But, the good news is that it's finally March.  Thankyou, Leap Year, for making March come 2 days early.

My roommate and I have been discussing where we want to live next year, and I think we've decided on NW Portland, Nob Hill area.  I'm kinda obsessed with it. It looks kinda like this:

                                                                                  and this:



Yea, it's really dreamy.  Portland's turning out to be one of the most impressive places I've experienced.  It's a city tucked away in a forest.  Could you imagine a better place to live?? Even though I'm going to school, I kinda feel like I'm on a long vacation here.  I don't know if that's a good thing... it makes me wonder if I will stay here after I graduate.  I'm sure I won't.  Knowing me, I'll be off on another adventure as soon as I'm done at PSU.

It makes me sad to think of leaving.  I'm hoping that I'll run into the love of my life here.  Portland is the perfect city for romance.

Speaking of romance, I HIGHLY suggest reading Tom Robbins' Still Life With Woodpecker. If you're not in love with someone now, it might make you feel like you are.