Suddenly, my life is like one of those TV dramas! I'd rather it not be. I'm considering dropping the charges so I don't have to deal with this whole situation, but I'm sure many hard core feminists would shake their heads at me.
I've always considered my life semi-uneventful; but I suppose it's always been filled with strange and questionable situations that, in the long run, only end up irritating me.
This drawing is by Thom Suzumoto. I found it on Arefuge and believe it is incredible.
In other news, I finished my journal yesterday. Interestingly, the beginnings and endings of my journals always coincide with the transitional events in my life. This last one began the week of finals before summer, and ended the first week of classes in my second term at PSU. It's the fastest I've ever been through a journal. The move to Portland has inspired a new and almost dependent connection with writing in me. I wrote almost daily, and documented the majority of my 20th year. The reason I'm writing this blog is because I have yet to go buy another journal, and I'm feeling uncomfortable.
I impulsively bought a tarot card deck online a few days ago and gave myself my first reading last night. I'm not one to necessarily believe in such things, but I follow the advice it gives because I don't usually receive better advice from others. I find it hard to find an individual who can simply tell me what to do with utmost confidence. I like the feeling of guidance, whether or not it is real or fake. Then I don't have to blame myself if things go wrong. In the end, it was everything else =)
The entire reading coincided with the question I asked and I was pleasantly surprised with the simplicity of the outcome.
My card for guidance in the issue turned out to be The Fool. In order to change my current situation, I must begin again without fear of consequences. That means I have to give up my fear of getting hurt.
It takes sooo much longer to break down a wall than to build it.
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